April 30, 2011
Got up this morning to take Hughie (my oldest) to the eye doctor. A few months ago we discovered his right eye had a cataract and he had surgery to have it removed. Today, we were finally going to get him fitted for glasses. I thought that it would be an exciting morning, little did I know that in the short time between waking up and leaving the house I'd be arguing with my husband and ready to just crawl back into bed and call it "quits" for the day.
I know I'm on edge because Justin (my husband) is going out of town tomorrow for work. I'm always highly emotional whenever he leaves but I feel like he's trying to pick fights with me this time around. It's very frustrating.
Anyway, we made it to the eye doctor and luckily the appointment went well and the glasses were ordered. My kiddo looks really cute in glasses.
And then we came home... the boys went outside to play and Justin went to mow the lawn. I started the dishes and suddenly broke down in tears. This overwhelming feeling of lonliness came over me. I can't descibe it much more than feeling like no one else in the world could possibly know how you're feeling. My heart aches and my stomach is turning.
Now my family is coming back inside, once again I'll wipe away the tears and put on a smile. I'll lift my head up and take a step in the right direction to feeling better. Kaleb (my youngest) is pulling on me and I can't say "no" to him. Here's to hoping that this is the low point of my day and it just goes up from here.
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