Can't Stop Eating

Oh My God,  this past week has sucked!!!  I can't stop putting everything into my mouth.  It's so annoying and frustrating.  And as always it has nothing to do with being hungry,  it's all about emotional crap!

It started with finding a new psychiatrist.  The old one was terrible yet, it took a year to figure that out.  This new one seems decent.  I've only seen her once but liked what she had to say about the medications I'm on and where she thinks I should be.  So, now... playing with meds is making me very moody, which in turn makes me eat.  Awww, the never ending cycle. 

To top everything off, I've lost my SPARK.  I was doing so good feeling motivated about things in my life.  I had tons of ideas for fun events at church, I joined Weight Watchers,  I had actually gone to the gym.  Now, I have NO desire to do any of it.   I want to be motivated.  I want to have that spark but, it's about all I can do just to get dressed.  The worst part is feeling like I'm torturing my boys.  They don't deserve to have a Mommy who is like this. 

I'm going to try to stay positive and put all of this into God's hands.  Praying that I've found the right doctor and slowly things will get better.  It just takes time.

The Ups & Downs

Life has been so full of Ups & Downs right now.   Joined Weight Watchers and have lost a little over 5 lbs in the first two weeks.  Yippy!  My Hughie is officially done with pre-school.  It's summer!

Had to find a new psychiatrist (that sucks).  My meds are off.  Got a terrible cold/ flu.  And can't seem to go more than 48 hours without some sort of frustration between myself and the hubby. 

It's in these moments when I wonder "what's the point?"  If I have a good day then something stupid comes around and ruins it within seconds.  Someone else has a good day,  I manage to find a way to ruin their day.  It's never ending.  I'm just so tired of it all.